Ok, so this is my first time on my new blogg, i got it because i was reading my closest friends blog, and it seemed so releaving to be able to just vent all the frustration and pation into the endless mainstream of the ethernet!

well here gose.

Ok, so today was my brother birthday party- even though his birthday was over a week ago- and alot of stuff happend within the lst week, and i mean a LOT of stuff.

First of all on tuseday, which realy was the biggest day of the week, my best friend came back from Big Stuff at about 6 Pm. -makes me very happy she's back! i get really bored when i have noone to talk to!-

Second tuseday was exactly 3 days away from me and my girl friends one year anivercery and less then a week before her birthday. but that night at about 9:30 i broke up with her because i dont think shes the one for me and i didnt want to see her suffer.

Tired on saterday me, my brother, his "not" girlfriend and my best friend all went to the movies, my bro and his "not" went to see harry potter -Gag-, but my best friend wanted to go see a diferent movie, so i went to see a chick flick with a girl im very close not two days after i broke up with my girlfriend...so yea, eather life hates me or im just a slut!

Forth, im feeling VERY Bad right know beacuse i just remembered halfway through this post that my younger brothers death willl be exactly 9 years gone soon.

Fith, im feeling great beacuse im the tipe of person who can let things out, and has to struggle alone, which is why im not telling anyone about this blog!

sixth,i have to work in the morning, but beacuse this blog is making me feel better, scrue IT! im staying up to make myself feel better, you know people alwasy think thatr ill never change because that what i would tell them, its truly amazing how wrong people can be, all those "friends" who never once tryed to understnd the iner turmoule that was rything just under the serface.

Seventh, you know ive never been able to open up to people, like i do with you. i guess thats why i can tell you all these things about me even though i dont even know you.

8th, You know, i always new that god ansered prayer, but i never realy expereanced it so much then i have this last week!

nineth, i think im infatuated, i just pray that god will give me the wizdom to understand what he wants me to bo about it.

Tenth, i think i've finaly found someone i can TRUELY TRUST!!!!!